Like most of you out there, I'm sure, this is most definitely not my first blog. I have had countless numbers of blogs since I was 12 for a variety of reasons. Some for school (though I really did miss the technology boom in classes, my University classes have required this of me lately), some during my depressed years to vent on, a couple during a particularly unpleasant phase of my teengagehood where I was trying to work through some deep childhood issues.
Notice a theme?
Wow, how depressing. My blogging history is not a pretty one. So this blog is here to be pretty. I'm not too sure how long it'll last, but I'm not focusing so much on that--that's another mistake I used to make, worrying about my blog. I just want a place to post and read around on, something to tell about my life and my day and my classes.
So a little about me! I'm 18, almost 19 (on February 22). I currently attend University and am in my second year on my way to becoming an Elementary school teacher. I actually started out University wanting to go into genetics...until I realized that I'm just not a huge fan of science, and it's not a huge fan of me! My mom works at an elementary school as a librarian (with many, many other duties), and she runs the lunch program. One day I was volunteering there and her lunch supervisors didn't show up--two of them. She took one classroom and practically begged me to take care of the other. Silly 17-year-old me balked like a baby cow and begged for her not to make me face the kidlets.
Kids, you may not know, are scary.
But I survived (barely) with no (visible) wounds.
When it happened again, I volunteered to go into the classroom.
And, when it happened again, I happily volunteered.
So finally I was working there on the permanent payroll, and have been ever since. But shortly after getting hired there, I switched into education. I'm sure I'll go on some passionate rant about how rewarding working in the school is someday soon, so you'll see. I really love working with kids, and I love teaching; not just subjects, but teaching kids how to problem solve, and helping them learn morality, time management, how to be a good person.
My only complaint about my life so far: the tiredness.
I've been experiencing extreme fatigue since I started University. At first I thought it was normal--everybody was tired, and everybody was stressed. But second semester wasn't really stressful, as I had switched into classes fitting my future program. But then I assumed that maybe, just maybe, I was subconsciously worried about getting into the education program. And then I was accepted into the program, summer came along, and...I was still dead exhausted all of the time. It's slowly gotten worse, and I've been seeing a doctor since September of 2009, about a year after it all started. No diagnosis yet, but I can most definitely tell you that it is not: Mono, diabetes, hypothyroidism (although I'll probably get this at some point soon because my thyroid is enlarged a little bit and everybody in my family has it), depression, or a wide variety of other problems.
The diagnosis process is proving to be long and arduous, and not many people really understand how bad this fatigue is. It's not just being sleepy, or lazy. I feel like I'm dying, sometimes--like the life is being sucked out of me. I'll sleep 10 or 12 hours and wake up exhausted as if I ran a marathon after a sleep famine. I'm also trying to stay positive...:P It's just a little hard when I'm going to bed at 7 PM many nights of the week.
But life's pretty wonderful overall, and I just have to remember that! I'll post more some other time. C:
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Caitlin
